On a Mission

Been trying to raise money for our crazy out of pocket  medical bills......not that anything has worked so far.

So LATE the other night I created a "Donations Web Site" . Twittered it out and Facebooked it out too and even put it on a traffic exchange and spent hours surfing for credits.....so far 2 people donated.

Not feeling too hopeful about this one, but it's worth a shot. I asked everyone on twitter and facebook to share or re-tweet it, which I hate doing. Asking people to post or tweet something for me, that is......but pride went out the window a long time ago. A lot shared it at least. Thanks for those that did. Means a lot to me.

I'm going to try posting the link different days and times of day also.

If anyone is actually reading this blog and you have a blog yourself, would you consider writing a post about this or placing a link on your page? ...and email me and tell me, if you do with your blog address so I can link back to you. I'm going to add Links to Friends and supporters in the sidebar this weekend if not sooner.

Headed to hospital to get Tina into surgery to put her port in her chest so they can start chemo next week.....

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Ever feel like you just got punched in the stomach?

Saw oncologist with the wife today.....they can't tell if the nodes in her lungs or the lesions in her liver are cancer or not because they are too small to diagnose or biopsy.....which means the doctor can't tell us if my girl is terminal or not.

They do say that even if they are cancer the chemo and radiation will "treat" them as well. My hope is that her treatment will obliterate them, but we have to watch them.

Wholly crap!

Part of me is happy they are treatable and part of me is devastated that the doctor can't say definitively that she is NOT terminal......scared....angry....and so many emotions in my head and heart i could not begin to explain how i feel, think, am.

Chemo starts 8/27/2010....2 weeks

I Need a Miracle!

I'm so stressed and worried about so many things right now with regard to the wife's cancer, treatment, her job, her insurance, how she is handling everything.

I'm beside myself and feel quite paralyzed today.....although I am doing all I can I fear it won't be enough to make this as easy and stress free for her as something like this can be........LOL....i know, I'm nuts.

This is hard enough already without her work and other things making it worse. They say money can't buy happiness, but it can buy her health and well being and our sanity.......unfortunately, I lost the lottery again....LOL

If ever I've needed a miracle, it's now. Not sure how much more I can endure
Lost a baby
Dog died
Mother-in-law died
Wife has cancer
....and the entire world seems hell bent on making this as hard/impossible to handle and deal with as possible.